welcome

浮かんだんだ 昨日の朝 早くに
割れたグラス かき集めるような

これは一体なんだろう 切った指からしたたる滴
僕らはこんなことしたかったのかな

分かってたよ 心の奥底では 最も辛い 選択がベスト
それを拒む自己愛と 結果自家撞着(どうちゃく)の繰り返し
僕はいつになれば言えるのかな

緩やかに朽ちてゆくこの世界で 足掻(あが)く僕の唯一の活路
色褪せた君の 微笑み刻んで 栓(せん)を抜いた

声を枯らして叫んだ 反響 残響 空しく響く
外された鎖の その先は なにひとつ残ってやしないけど
ふたりを重ねてた偶然 暗転 断線 儚く千々(ちぢ)に
所詮こんなものさ 呟いた 枯れた頬に伝う誰かの涙


気づいたんだ 昨日の 凪いだ夜に
落ちた花弁 拾い上げたとして

また咲き戻ることはない そう手の平の上の小さな死
僕らの時間は止まったまま

思い出すよ 初めて会った季節を 君の優しく微笑む顔を
今を過去に押しやって 二人傷つく限り傷ついた
僕らの心は棘(とげ)だらけだ

重苦しく続くこの関係で 悲しい程 変わらない心
愛してるのに 離れがたいのに 僕が言わなきゃ

心に土砂降りの雨が 呆然(ぼうぜん) 竦然(しょうぜん) 視界も煙る
覚悟してた筈(はず)の その痛み それでも貫かれるこの体
ふたりを繋いでた絆 綻(ほころ)び 解け 日常に消えてく
さよなら愛した人 ここまでだ もう振り向かないで歩き出すんだ

一度だけ 一度だけ 願いが叶うのならば
何度でも生まれ変わって あの日の君に逢いに行くよ

声を枯らして叫んだ 反響 残響 空しく響く
外された鎖の その先は なにひとつ残ってやしないけど
ふたりを繋いでた絆 綻(ほころ)び 解け 日常に消えてく
さよなら愛した人 ここまでだ もう振り向かないで歩き出すんだ

これでおしまいさ



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{/Post-mugging destress?! :O

Wednesday, September 29, 2010 ( 4:37 AM )

HRAAAWWRRRR (breathes fire on you)

I don't wanna mug all of a sudden. ): BUT I MUST! So I'll get to studying Western Theatre after a break, cuz I just finished math. Swear we've already done the supp worksheets she gave us today.

So anyway, I recently came across this site that my cousin recommended (she's studying fine arts) called Immersive Garden by Dilshan Arukatt, an art director based in Paris. The site is actually an online portfolio with an interactive interface that moves! The images and quotes on the site are really inspirational and beautiful, perhaps I let the photos below speak for themselves? They're all wallpapers used in the site that are downloadable. (Not interactive when downloaded though, it's a pity!) Disclaimer: I do not own any of these images. (c) Dilshan Arukatt.














Immersive Garden has been awarded Site of the Day multiple times. :O

Kay that aside. There's so much stuff to do post exam! (sadface) I'm afraid there might be too many activites for me to handle; they've all got similar/close deadlines. Argh. Back to mugging.

{/Reflection time.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010 ( 6:54 PM )

So it's reflection time for the school; reflection time for the soul, etc. I think I'll reflect more on my regrets and hopes. And happy moments, of course! :3

So uh. Happy moments. I think that this year was great for me cuz I got to meet lots of new people, forge new ties with awesome humanoids I already know and experience new stufffffz. (;D) I learnt lots of new things this year! For example, like how to tie a candy string into a knot with my tongue; how to play the guitar; how to Photoshop decently for school assignments; how sometimes being honest with myself and other people (to a certain extent :P) isn't necessarily a bad thing. I've also done pretty well for my recent assessments (except Chinese) and mock assessments (except Chinese) and did I forget, except Chinese! (and Japanese. OTL 失敗です!! )

I had a blast at Year 2 camp, organised myself, made better study notes (which had better be effective for exams, otherwise I'm killing people), reorganised my room a couple million times. We (the friendly humanoids and I) gave Bex a couple million other nicknames, played the llama game, and found new swearwords to use in class that won't get us expelled. ;)

And I discovered Bones, NCIS, How I Met Your Mother, etc. Yes, I know I'm slow. I'm making up for it!


AND OH MY GOD 会長はメイド様!‘s 碓氷拓海! (nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)(nosebleed)

Regrets.. I didn't actually fulfill all my New Year resolutions. Like revising my EL1 日本語. (As you can see, I'm totally trying to make up for that now >_<'') I think I might have dropped /marginally/ in my overall percentage, which is not awesome. I would still like to claim money from the gah-men, thanks very much :D Didn't do as well for Lit and Chinese as I would have wanted to - then again, I want to do awesome for all my subjects OTL - it's actually harder than I thought! Analysis kicks my ass. (sadface)

But I've always held this philosophy that regardless of how well a year went, I should try and enjoy it to the max! Because I don't think there's much point in emoing all over the place when one can take everything with a positive attitude, and learning something from it. (Good god, so philosophical. -.-'') And I have learnt a lot from this year! I've experienced new things, I've been more risk-taking than I was last year (I think. Hope I'm right! ;D), been more outspoken and sincere about my opinion (though it might be kinda terribly mean and sarcastic at times GOSH I FEEL SO BAD SORRRYYYYYY T^T)

Shizzle. Last five minutes to type.

... (Obviously not using time well.) (I should really get back to serious mugging when I get home.)

So in conclusion! This year was well lived. I laughed, fought, argued, smiled, conspired, teased, got stooged, joked, felt like I was worth something, and hopefully for the upcoming exams, will excel. Wish all of us good exams~~ WE CAN DO IT! YOSHHH! :3

Back to mugging.
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