welcome

浮かんだんだ 昨日の朝 早くに
割れたグラス かき集めるような

これは一体なんだろう 切った指からしたたる滴
僕らはこんなことしたかったのかな

分かってたよ 心の奥底では 最も辛い 選択がベスト
それを拒む自己愛と 結果自家撞着(どうちゃく)の繰り返し
僕はいつになれば言えるのかな

緩やかに朽ちてゆくこの世界で 足掻(あが)く僕の唯一の活路
色褪せた君の 微笑み刻んで 栓(せん)を抜いた

声を枯らして叫んだ 反響 残響 空しく響く
外された鎖の その先は なにひとつ残ってやしないけど
ふたりを重ねてた偶然 暗転 断線 儚く千々(ちぢ)に
所詮こんなものさ 呟いた 枯れた頬に伝う誰かの涙


気づいたんだ 昨日の 凪いだ夜に
落ちた花弁 拾い上げたとして

また咲き戻ることはない そう手の平の上の小さな死
僕らの時間は止まったまま

思い出すよ 初めて会った季節を 君の優しく微笑む顔を
今を過去に押しやって 二人傷つく限り傷ついた
僕らの心は棘(とげ)だらけだ

重苦しく続くこの関係で 悲しい程 変わらない心
愛してるのに 離れがたいのに 僕が言わなきゃ

心に土砂降りの雨が 呆然(ぼうぜん) 竦然(しょうぜん) 視界も煙る
覚悟してた筈(はず)の その痛み それでも貫かれるこの体
ふたりを繋いでた絆 綻(ほころ)び 解け 日常に消えてく
さよなら愛した人 ここまでだ もう振り向かないで歩き出すんだ

一度だけ 一度だけ 願いが叶うのならば
何度でも生まれ変わって あの日の君に逢いに行くよ

声を枯らして叫んだ 反響 残響 空しく響く
外された鎖の その先は なにひとつ残ってやしないけど
ふたりを繋いでた絆 綻(ほころ)び 解け 日常に消えてく
さよなら愛した人 ここまでだ もう振り向かないで歩き出すんだ

これでおしまいさ



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{/So much for.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009 ( 5:03 AM )

You'd think that with the holidays now, life would be so much more interesting.

...BAW IT'S NOT! (cryingface)

All the fun stuff planned is next week onwards. Like making cat ears with Dione, AFA, post-AFA shopping for jewelry-making materials, movies, etc. And I've been working alot lately, which is actually quite cool; just that I can't stand the annoying, spoilt 10-year old expatriate girls alot. ><><) I also have to test out recipes for cupcakes cos Becca went to tell the whole wide world that I can cook.

Now it's probably sounds like I've planned out my entire holiday, but I haven't! Let's be fairly honest here: sitting infront of a TV or my computer screen or messing around in the kitchen the whole day is really not productive. It is also unhealthy. Even if I've been eating lots of fruit lately. (...due to the fact that when I was watching Death Note, I wondered why Ryuk [shinigami = death god] could live so long and concluded that it was because he ate alot of apples. Next thing I know, I walk over to the vegetable crisper and got myself an apple. Epic fail, I know..)

Actually, I would happily spend my time on Facebook but I can't due to the fact that Facebook is utterly dead, and even the awesomeness of the 2000+ comment photo has now slowed down from 100+ comments per day to a few alerts every now and then. This should be a fail indicator of how fail my holiday is. I should go running. Yeah. Running. And practising Little Wonders on my guitar for the upcoming cover. Though there's only so far one can go before blisters appear on the fingers. (Did I mention, I can play the acoustic now?)

Other than abovementioned fail, I have accomplished something (finally) at the very least!~ Last night/this morning I completed making my new mismatching (yet again) earring design and as of a couple days ago, more or less finished the shading for Cain's face. Yes. I only drew his face. And a thought bubble of Japanese pudding with caramel sauce cos I was hungry. (These should be submitted on dA once I get them photographed/scanned in.)

.......This post should be scrapped or something. Yet here it is. 8D To show how even MORE fail I am, please enjoy the screenshot of my UNCOMPLETED hiragana revison which I TOTALLY TYPED MYSELF OK. (pulls hair out) Ohyeah. It would so me justice to click on it so you can see it better. Arigato~






~Chaice.