welcome

浮かんだんだ 昨日の朝 早くに
割れたグラス かき集めるような

これは一体なんだろう 切った指からしたたる滴
僕らはこんなことしたかったのかな

分かってたよ 心の奥底では 最も辛い 選択がベスト
それを拒む自己愛と 結果自家撞着(どうちゃく)の繰り返し
僕はいつになれば言えるのかな

緩やかに朽ちてゆくこの世界で 足掻(あが)く僕の唯一の活路
色褪せた君の 微笑み刻んで 栓(せん)を抜いた

声を枯らして叫んだ 反響 残響 空しく響く
外された鎖の その先は なにひとつ残ってやしないけど
ふたりを重ねてた偶然 暗転 断線 儚く千々(ちぢ)に
所詮こんなものさ 呟いた 枯れた頬に伝う誰かの涙


気づいたんだ 昨日の 凪いだ夜に
落ちた花弁 拾い上げたとして

また咲き戻ることはない そう手の平の上の小さな死
僕らの時間は止まったまま

思い出すよ 初めて会った季節を 君の優しく微笑む顔を
今を過去に押しやって 二人傷つく限り傷ついた
僕らの心は棘(とげ)だらけだ

重苦しく続くこの関係で 悲しい程 変わらない心
愛してるのに 離れがたいのに 僕が言わなきゃ

心に土砂降りの雨が 呆然(ぼうぜん) 竦然(しょうぜん) 視界も煙る
覚悟してた筈(はず)の その痛み それでも貫かれるこの体
ふたりを繋いでた絆 綻(ほころ)び 解け 日常に消えてく
さよなら愛した人 ここまでだ もう振り向かないで歩き出すんだ

一度だけ 一度だけ 願いが叶うのならば
何度でも生まれ変わって あの日の君に逢いに行くよ

声を枯らして叫んだ 反響 残響 空しく響く
外された鎖の その先は なにひとつ残ってやしないけど
ふたりを繋いでた絆 綻(ほころ)び 解け 日常に消えてく
さよなら愛した人 ここまでだ もう振り向かないで歩き出すんだ

これでおしまいさ



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{/AFA2009 / My name is Ja Yang Yen.

Sunday, November 22, 2009 ( 7:30 AM )

The AFA was freaking awesome! 8DD I'm broke now, though. Sadface. Other than that, I've changed my phone, XD-ed too many times in a sms message during Grandma's birthday dinner, survived with no food for 12h and got about 2h of sleep last night before having to go to church in the morning~! FINALLY! My holiday is starting to sound like one!

I got up at 930am to make cupcakes for the group before going. It was hell cos I slept at 2am. But they tasted pretty good, considering I was half alseep and stuff~! And at any rate, they were good enough to trick JY into closing his eyes while we wrestled Dione's awesome cat ears (and a ribbon) on him and took below's pictures. :PPPP BLACKMAAAIL!

Arrived late at around noon so we hung outside for a while waiting for Elaine. We gave up and went in, (Gomen, neechan!)got Becca her Ben 10 merchandise and looked at things. Yes. We looked at things. Dione's awesome cat ears, which she had actually lent me first, were kind of dropping off my head so I gave up and got myself a hat. It cost me 30 bucks. Kill me, please. But apparently it was cute, so ohwell~! (You can see the blasphemy at dA, btw. ID-ness.) It now has a Sebastian and Ciel on either side..

I will condense, cos I'm getting sleepy. EPIC was: DO-U-JIN-SHI-BOOTH. Right, Dione? We spotted lots of Kuro doujins and one anthology(below).
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Everyone: Hey! Cool! *flipflipflip*
Dione: Hey! Cool! *flipflipflipflipflipflip* KYAAA~~~! *falls backwards, imaginary blood streaming everywhere*
Megan: (reading over dione's shoulder) *flipflipflip* *stumbles back under dione's weight, ears fall off*
Everyone else: WHAT HAPPENED!?!?? *flipflipflip* ......(speechless)....
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I think she ended up buying it.

We ended up also queueing for half an hour and paying 100 bucks in one shot for 6 people to enter the Moe Moe Kyun Cafe. Waste of bloody money, I swear. But yeah. Life's liddat at conventions like these. 8DDD (I think I blew 50 bucks in total at the convention... Not bad...)

At any rate, that was my shoddy condensation of the AFA! (fail) I might redo this soon.. But in the meantime, do feel free to enjoy the awesome blackmail pics below! :3 Elaine, you're awesome~!

Chaice. (To clear doubts, this is pronounced 'chase'.)
Ohyeah. I'm bored. Entertainment..... >< Someone call me or sms me. sadface.