welcome

浮かんだんだ 昨日の朝 早くに
割れたグラス かき集めるような

これは一体なんだろう 切った指からしたたる滴
僕らはこんなことしたかったのかな

分かってたよ 心の奥底では 最も辛い 選択がベスト
それを拒む自己愛と 結果自家撞着(どうちゃく)の繰り返し
僕はいつになれば言えるのかな

緩やかに朽ちてゆくこの世界で 足掻(あが)く僕の唯一の活路
色褪せた君の 微笑み刻んで 栓(せん)を抜いた

声を枯らして叫んだ 反響 残響 空しく響く
外された鎖の その先は なにひとつ残ってやしないけど
ふたりを重ねてた偶然 暗転 断線 儚く千々(ちぢ)に
所詮こんなものさ 呟いた 枯れた頬に伝う誰かの涙


気づいたんだ 昨日の 凪いだ夜に
落ちた花弁 拾い上げたとして

また咲き戻ることはない そう手の平の上の小さな死
僕らの時間は止まったまま

思い出すよ 初めて会った季節を 君の優しく微笑む顔を
今を過去に押しやって 二人傷つく限り傷ついた
僕らの心は棘(とげ)だらけだ

重苦しく続くこの関係で 悲しい程 変わらない心
愛してるのに 離れがたいのに 僕が言わなきゃ

心に土砂降りの雨が 呆然(ぼうぜん) 竦然(しょうぜん) 視界も煙る
覚悟してた筈(はず)の その痛み それでも貫かれるこの体
ふたりを繋いでた絆 綻(ほころ)び 解け 日常に消えてく
さよなら愛した人 ここまでだ もう振り向かないで歩き出すんだ

一度だけ 一度だけ 願いが叶うのならば
何度でも生まれ変わって あの日の君に逢いに行くよ

声を枯らして叫んだ 反響 残響 空しく響く
外された鎖の その先は なにひとつ残ってやしないけど
ふたりを繋いでた絆 綻(ほころ)び 解け 日常に消えてく
さよなら愛した人 ここまでだ もう振り向かないで歩き出すんだ

これでおしまいさ



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{/EPIC AWESOME (2)

Monday, November 30, 2009 ( 10:54 PM )

; c h a i c e says (9:17 PM):
we're all christmas colours!~

bex says (9:17 PM):
WHATS WRONG WITH JY!?
heyhety


! dione. says (9:17 PM):
SIGH...

; c h a i c e says (9:17 PM):
YEAH LOR!

bex says (9:17 PM):
u haven anwswered my q
jy i mean
chaice, HI 5!!:D

Why are parents such a pain even when they are asking for a favor? (Ja Yang) says (9:17 PM):
lol nothing very serious la

! dione. says (9:17 PM):
OKAY! DONT LOOK IF YOU DONT WANT TO!

bex says (9:17 PM):
silver bells, silverbells

! dione. says (9:17 PM):
UMMM.

bex says (9:17 PM):
silverbells
sliver bells


; c h a i c e says (9:17 PM):
CHRISTMAS TREE
JY'S THE TRUNK


bex says (9:17 PM):
its christmas time in the city!!!

Why are parents such a pain even when they are asking for a favor? (Ja Yang) says (9:17 PM):
just they very tiresome

bex says (9:17 PM):
deng deng deng!

Why are parents such a pain even when they are asking for a favor? (Ja Yang) says (9:18 PM):
lol

! dione. says (9:18 PM):
.... SPARKLE SPARKLE.

bex says (9:18 PM):
what did they ask u for?

Why are parents such a pain even when they are asking for a favor? (Ja Yang) says (9:18 PM):
lol watch this

; c h a i c e says (9:18 PM):
HOMG DIONE SPARKLE SPARKLE

Why are parents such a pain even when they are asking for a favor? (Ja Yang) says (9:18 PM):
lol

! dione. says (9:18 PM):
LOL.

Why are parents such a pain even when they are asking for a favor? (Ja Yang) says (9:18 PM):
lol
lol
lol
lol -----> trunk


; c h a i c e says (9:18 PM):
ELEPHANT

bex says (9:18 PM):
HAHAHA!!!
hey, chaice


; c h a i c e says (9:18 PM):
HAAI!

bex says (9:18 PM):
put your leaves on!;D

; c h a i c e says (9:18 PM):
HAHAHAHAHA
NOOO


! dione. says (9:18 PM):
OOOO

; c h a i c e says (9:19 PM):
YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO DECORATE ME WITH ORNAMENTS

bex says (9:19 PM):
oh yea

Why are parents such a pain even when they are asking for a favor? (Ja Yang) says (9:19 PM):
LOL now that was funny XDD

; c h a i c e says (9:19 PM):
AND SPARKLY LIGHTS
AND PRETTY SMELLING THINGS



Ok in case you guys don't know yet, these posts are exported to my Fb notes on auto. So like if you're viewing this on Fb you might have to highlight Dione's words.

If you're viewing this on my blog, highlight Why are parents such a pain even when they are asking for a favor? (Ja Yang) 's text to see it properly.

{/.___.

Thursday, November 26, 2009 ( 11:46 PM )

I HAVE DONE A VERY BAD THING. SHIT.

I...I... AAHHH I CAN'T DO IT!!! I'll let the screenshots below speak for themselves? YEAH! Do them justice and click on them to enlarge ok? 8D


Bullshit! ............I need to work on my punctuation sometime soon. ><

So after that we were arguing over MSN about the pics. (Credits for the first two shots and the google one below go to him as well.) AND THEN:

.......*throws rotten tomato out of window*...... That was stupid. = =





Pleasantries aside, we also managed to cook up even more epic failness! 8D

[c=#6D55FB](*)ernest [/c] [c=#0078F0][/themalecow/][/c] [c=#FFFF00][/c] says (3:59 PM):
ok let's see.
how many guys do you know
who can carry a conversation that long.
via sms.

; c h a i c e says (3:59 PM):
....................
dione.


c=#6D55FB](*)ernest [/c] [c=#0078F0][/themalecow/][/c] [c=#FFFF00][/c] says (4:00 PM):
okay, biological guys, and not surgery + hormone injection guys.


Dione, we love you, and so you should SO love us back for this. 8D


Try and guess how relevant the google search above is. XDDD


{/H-he-hea-head-a-ac-ach-ache BAWWW

Monday, November 23, 2009 ( 4:06 AM )

I kena whack with a pounding headache... >< and I feel sleepy again! GAH! Cannot tahan la! (cryingface)

{/AFA2009 / My name is Ja Yang Yen.

Sunday, November 22, 2009 ( 7:30 AM )

The AFA was freaking awesome! 8DD I'm broke now, though. Sadface. Other than that, I've changed my phone, XD-ed too many times in a sms message during Grandma's birthday dinner, survived with no food for 12h and got about 2h of sleep last night before having to go to church in the morning~! FINALLY! My holiday is starting to sound like one!

I got up at 930am to make cupcakes for the group before going. It was hell cos I slept at 2am. But they tasted pretty good, considering I was half alseep and stuff~! And at any rate, they were good enough to trick JY into closing his eyes while we wrestled Dione's awesome cat ears (and a ribbon) on him and took below's pictures. :PPPP BLACKMAAAIL!

Arrived late at around noon so we hung outside for a while waiting for Elaine. We gave up and went in, (Gomen, neechan!)got Becca her Ben 10 merchandise and looked at things. Yes. We looked at things. Dione's awesome cat ears, which she had actually lent me first, were kind of dropping off my head so I gave up and got myself a hat. It cost me 30 bucks. Kill me, please. But apparently it was cute, so ohwell~! (You can see the blasphemy at dA, btw. ID-ness.) It now has a Sebastian and Ciel on either side..

I will condense, cos I'm getting sleepy. EPIC was: DO-U-JIN-SHI-BOOTH. Right, Dione? We spotted lots of Kuro doujins and one anthology(below).
--
Everyone: Hey! Cool! *flipflipflip*
Dione: Hey! Cool! *flipflipflipflipflipflip* KYAAA~~~! *falls backwards, imaginary blood streaming everywhere*
Megan: (reading over dione's shoulder) *flipflipflip* *stumbles back under dione's weight, ears fall off*
Everyone else: WHAT HAPPENED!?!?? *flipflipflip* ......(speechless)....
--
I think she ended up buying it.

We ended up also queueing for half an hour and paying 100 bucks in one shot for 6 people to enter the Moe Moe Kyun Cafe. Waste of bloody money, I swear. But yeah. Life's liddat at conventions like these. 8DDD (I think I blew 50 bucks in total at the convention... Not bad...)

At any rate, that was my shoddy condensation of the AFA! (fail) I might redo this soon.. But in the meantime, do feel free to enjoy the awesome blackmail pics below! :3 Elaine, you're awesome~!

Chaice. (To clear doubts, this is pronounced 'chase'.)
Ohyeah. I'm bored. Entertainment..... >< Someone call me or sms me. sadface.









{/EPIC AWESOME.

Thursday, November 19, 2009 ( 4:41 AM )

! dione loves the blue cat's tunnel. says (8:26PM):
CHAICE!
i haven't finished the cat ears yet..! zzz...

; c h a i c e Natsume~ says (8:27 PM):
's ok lah! it's only thursdaaayy


! dione loves the blue cat's tunnel. says (8:28 PM):
... zzz!
anyway, just to confirm, you want grey yes?

; c h a i c e Natsume~ says (8:28 PM):
yepp.
we can be.. uh..
*thinks hard*


; c h a i c e Natsume~ says (8:29 PM):
DUST BUNNIES.
8D


! dione loves the blue cat's tunnel. says (8:29 PM):
...
hmmm, i was thinking of having mine white-ish orange

; c h a i c e Natsume~ says (8:29 PM):
cool..........
DUSTY TIGGER!


! dione loves the blue cat's tunnel. says (8:30 PM):
.........................

; c h a i c e Natsume~ says (8:30 PM):
what?
it makes sense.....


! dione loves the blue cat's tunnel. says (8:30 PM):
what about....
OLD FOX.
old= grey
fox= white and orange



Now haven't I told you lot that Dione and I exude awesomeness before? 8DDDDD
(And this happens to not include the epic late-night-early-morning sms convos we've been having for the past 2 days~)

{/NOMNOMNOM

Tuesday, November 17, 2009 ( 4:31 AM )

Ahaha! Awesomeness! I feel awesomer than yesterdaaay~! (happyhappyhappyface) Ok lah so my temperature rose from 36.6 to 37.1 degrees, but I'll sleep it off! Heck, I probably would have slept and drank it off already.

Other than that, I tested out the lemon and cream cheese cupcake recipe I decided to make for the people going to AFA. It's yummy....

Did I mention, I've been so bored that yesterday I reread the How to Draw Manga book I snitched from Kuro a long time ago (I asked ok!) and used the face proportion templates for a couple of heads? I even coloured them in. And they're actually pretty decent looking! Hm. Time to hunt down a scanner and put that in my Scraps, I think. ;____; ....If this isn't an indicator of how much I need to get out more often, I dunno what is.

Sigh. Nothing interesting happened lately. >< Life should go shopping for new toys. I need to find decent song tabs. Sigh.

{/I feel terrible like hell just froze over. Save me, someone.

Sunday, November 15, 2009 ( 5:08 AM )

I saw the doctor today, and BANG BANG POW I'm down with a bacterial infection. Apparently if I had gone in for checkup later I would have gotten an all-out bronchitis. Aaaaah. Life sucks. So much for awesome timing to get sick, right? AFA IN 6 DAYS OK!!! (cryingface) Somemore I missed the lunch with church classmates and leaders today at Subway after biblestudy cos I wasn't allowed to go church. Life sucks more.

Sore throat, cough, blocked nose and a splitting headache = no citrus, cold drinks (WTF?!) or fried stuff. As prescribed by doctor. Plus, my mum won't let me have toasted stuff like bread. Or bagels, which I've recently come to like eating. We've only got oranges in the fridge. I can't eat oranges cos of my throat... And I'm hungry as hell, only I can't eat cos if I do I'll just throw it all up. Eh. >< I even managed to nap an extra 5 hours today. And yet I still feel sleepy. And my mother says I can't go AFA if I don't get well by then. Bullshit. Where is the logic in that!?!? Just as well, my dad cut off my Internet again by 5 hours. I'm only allowed online from 8.30 to 10.30pm.

Ok. No more whining. Me dad and I restrung my guitar! And I only had to pay for strings... Which actually cost me 9 dollars cos they're phosphor bronze. (If you total up the total I spent on the strings it's $16.50 cos I wasted my first pack. That's 3/4 of the money I earned. Bullshit.) My fingers are killing me... But my barre chords sound so much nicer now~!


Get well soon, Dione onii-chan! Hope your fever goes down sooooon! (hughughug)



{/Stupid guitar strings.

Thursday, November 12, 2009 ( 3:41 AM )

BAW STUPID GUITAR STRINGS I PAO U WITH MAH LAYSHUR! (HUH!!!)

My guitar e string (the thinnest one) snapped yesterday when I was trying out a new tuning for Thunder and turned the tuning key the wrong way. So today on the way to Megan's house, I bought a new set and attempted restringing at her house. THE e STRING SNAPPED AGAIN. AND WHIPPED MY LEFT HAND ON THE SAME SPOT WHERE I GOT WHIPPED LAST NIGHT. Bullshit.

So I clipped it off with pliers and stupidly went to go and try to get the knot (we were attempting different ways of tightening the string while tuning) out with my finger. It drew blood. I feel stupid. (And sometimes I wonder why, you know..)

And for the record, I'm 'broke' until after the AFA. I spent $7.50 on those strings. And since they snapped and I restrung them wrongly I figure I should go to the shop and ask them to do it for me tomorrow. I just checked the website. THEY CHARGE. Wtf. *wallet bleeds* Should have figured, ne. (Click on the image below to see it clearly)



Plus, the sore throat still hasn't let up. 8C Becca found out and immediately proclaimed it to be a throat ulcer. Geez. When I die, Bec, you're not getting my money.

Speaking of Becca, we were at said Megan's house today doing a cover for Little Wonders by Rob Thomas. When Megan and I were recording and finished (more or less), we opened the door to a halfwit-faced Becca holding up her index finger, which had a fake thumb that lit up on it.
(Paraphrasing ok.)
Becca: (deadpanned face) Hey it actually sounded ok even with the wrong timing.
Chaice: O____O (registers for a while..)
*fake thumb lights up*
Why, what a manly index finger you have, Becca!

**SHAMLESS ADVERTISING FOR DIONE: Please do remember to purchase YOUR COPY of her upcoming book, What actually happened the night Ja Yang Yen lost his tie-and SOMETHING ELSE- ! Sneak previews on Facebook end Nov, but may be delayed due to said author's fail procrastination~**


{/Epic sick = fail fail.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009 ( 5:25 AM )

Sigh. I'm sick again. Sore throat. But then again, maybe I've not been drinking enough water. >< It's really annoying! Everytime I try and drink water, I can FEEL something at the back of my throat...! BAAWWW! しくしくしく~ (shiku = sobbing. Didn't I mention I was revising my Japanese?)

I guess there IS something to be said about getting out of the house more often. Maybe I should sleep early tonight and go running tomorrow morning. Yeah. I should do that. Plus I finished my verbs revision on the bus to CHS, and I cleared 6 eps of Kuro. Meanwhile, view Sebastian blaspheming below! (I should really stop taking screenshots of funny scenes when I'm watching Kuro.. ;___;)


*steps*
*squishes*
**SQUISHHHHHHHH**
**pfffffttt**
*sound of deflating object*

{/So much for.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009 ( 5:03 AM )

You'd think that with the holidays now, life would be so much more interesting.

...BAW IT'S NOT! (cryingface)

All the fun stuff planned is next week onwards. Like making cat ears with Dione, AFA, post-AFA shopping for jewelry-making materials, movies, etc. And I've been working alot lately, which is actually quite cool; just that I can't stand the annoying, spoilt 10-year old expatriate girls alot. ><><) I also have to test out recipes for cupcakes cos Becca went to tell the whole wide world that I can cook.

Now it's probably sounds like I've planned out my entire holiday, but I haven't! Let's be fairly honest here: sitting infront of a TV or my computer screen or messing around in the kitchen the whole day is really not productive. It is also unhealthy. Even if I've been eating lots of fruit lately. (...due to the fact that when I was watching Death Note, I wondered why Ryuk [shinigami = death god] could live so long and concluded that it was because he ate alot of apples. Next thing I know, I walk over to the vegetable crisper and got myself an apple. Epic fail, I know..)

Actually, I would happily spend my time on Facebook but I can't due to the fact that Facebook is utterly dead, and even the awesomeness of the 2000+ comment photo has now slowed down from 100+ comments per day to a few alerts every now and then. This should be a fail indicator of how fail my holiday is. I should go running. Yeah. Running. And practising Little Wonders on my guitar for the upcoming cover. Though there's only so far one can go before blisters appear on the fingers. (Did I mention, I can play the acoustic now?)

Other than abovementioned fail, I have accomplished something (finally) at the very least!~ Last night/this morning I completed making my new mismatching (yet again) earring design and as of a couple days ago, more or less finished the shading for Cain's face. Yes. I only drew his face. And a thought bubble of Japanese pudding with caramel sauce cos I was hungry. (These should be submitted on dA once I get them photographed/scanned in.)

.......This post should be scrapped or something. Yet here it is. 8D To show how even MORE fail I am, please enjoy the screenshot of my UNCOMPLETED hiragana revison which I TOTALLY TYPED MYSELF OK. (pulls hair out) Ohyeah. It would so me justice to click on it so you can see it better. Arigato~






~Chaice.

{/

Sunday, November 8, 2009 ( 6:09 AM )

Hey there, brother-in-law! Nice coattails you got thar. Can I haz Natsume please? Really? (hug)
So how's life after Dione left you for Cloud? Shitty? Cos Sebastian had no-one else to be clingy with? Ohdearme. Well, you'd like to know that Dione left him for Araragi. (Bakemonogatari)

OKOK I have Death Note to read now. Plus, my Internet dies at 10.15. Blame the father, I guess. Gomen!

じゃ、おやすみ!
チャイス

{/It's been a while.

Friday, November 6, 2009 ( 5:53 AM )

GAHIAMSOSORRYFORKILLINGMYPREVIOUSBLOGILIKESODIDN'TMEANITSORRYSORRYSORRY! (cryingface)

So yeah. Life's been ok. But yeah. Shit happens. I mean like, with the Internet back and the free time I kind of saw what you guys have been up to and stuff. Gomen, ne? (Means sorry)
Anyway, even with my Internet back it shuts off at 10.15. Booshidd. I cry. Baw. I'll get down to letting people know I'm back tomorrow.

Oyasumi!
Chaice.